AJ's NoN-SeNSeNeSS

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

The last 2011 Blog and Next one will be in 2012

A lot of things happen so fast, for now I'm in my 4th semester.
At the beginning of it, it was a-okay but somehow unfortunate turn of events somehow made it into despair for me. For I've lost contact of this one unique friend I've made in the previous semester.
For some reason, I've fell for her looks and cuteness, but now it's nothing but a stab in my heart.

I've done thing indifferently than others, I'm even introvert person so don't blame me for being that.
Karma's a bitch remember... It'll turn my life upside down or left to right and so on...

But I don't care about that but I do care for her, and I feel sorry for her because of her decisions made..
and hell, I can't do a thing... I was just stupidly trying to get us more than friends..
THAT can nvr happen, I mena LITERALLY cannot happen... It could, but dunno how the universe-slash-God gonna let it happen to me...

Back to my point, I cared for the times we had as friends, to her, it just a "bump-into-each other" situation, but to me, it's something that I cherished into my memories...
And I thanked her for those moments in all forms of communication :D

I don't know if I can ever found a girl like, maybe I can, maybe I cannot...
Love's also a bitch... Who says guys hv strong hearts...? Man are more fragile than girls.. Why?
Simple, we bear all the burdens of the family, economics, financially and etc when married..
But before that, and during university-time, we tried our best to find the right ones and u know the rest..

BACK TO MY POINT AGAIN!, I liked her more than a friend, but didn't manage to tell directly....
But it indirectly somehow was a joke and of course, that was just early-acquaintance as friends...
Moreover, it turn into a feeling that I thought I've "fallen" for her.. But Facebook sometimes made things worst and of course, others assholes abusing her FB profile and of course again, ex-es...

For my studies, I've got to maintain a above 3.00 CGPA.. Forgot to mention, she is a Genius!
can't beat her, it's impossible...
I nvr had repeated subjects but only drop only ONCE! and other drops were orders given...
I want to be on a [Whatever] Lists that I wanna be proud of...
I've got to change my ways of life and studies.. and of course, MINDSETS!
But study hard but play harder! and don't study hard, study smarter..:)(:

I think that's everything I have to say and of course, everything else was a BLAST, MEMORABLE and HAPPY.. I think.. :D hahahahah

Seeya in 2012...